John Hurts Rodney (Kinda Dark fics)

[bloodmistres.livejournal.com]

I'm looking for any McShep or gen fic where accidently, under the influence, AMTDI, intentionally but with good intentions, John does or says or behaves in a way that hurts or even kills Rodney (temporarily or actual death or ascenion). I'll also count emotional hurt and pain!
I'd perfer happy endings and fics that go into John's guilt and Rodney's response. Although I'm good with other people being involved and someone else making John realize what he did.
I don't mind fics where Rodney ends up with a disability (temp or otherwise) or just becomes afriad of John.

And in a somehow more painful note: if you know of any fics that are similar but John actually drives Rodney to suicide or just deals with the aftermath of his suicide.
I'm in the mood for some emotional pain!!

Only thing I wouldn't like is infidelity or juat evil John who wants to hurt Rodney or rape/any kind of sexual assult.
Thanks in Advance!

Comments

[cassiope25]

Hi, here are three fics which sprung to my mind and none of them contain sexual assault.
1. "Moka" by Martha ~14K
https://archiveofourown.org/works/68190
Drug induced
2. "Crimson Dreams" by forcryingoutloud ~8K
https://archiveofourown.org/works/335043
Drug induced. There it's not only John but the whole team.
3. "Hidden Resources" by Tipper ~50K
https://m.fanfiction.net/s/2063864/1/
Albeit without drugs being involved but John hurting Rodney out of ignorance

It could be that you know all of them but otherwise give it a try :)

[bloodmistres.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much these are great!!

[mific (from livejournal.com)]

Tacet by estora is amazing. Goes au after Phantoms, as when John shoots Rodney due to the Wraith mind-whammying device he causes real damage. https://archiveofourown.org/works/20105422

[bloodmistres.livejournal.com]

I've been looking for a fic like that! Thanks so much!!