Heartbreak

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

I'm looking for something to break my heart. Shatter it into teensy, tiny little pieces. I mean really, sobbing into the keyboard, concerned neighbours here. 

McShep would rock, but I'm open to John or Rodney centric gen too. Anything goes, in terms of rating and length.

Comments

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Hey. I have an unholy devotion to this fic. It's probably not at all healthy, but you've inspired me to go read it (again). Thank you!

[jimandblair.livejournal.com]

http://leahwoof.livejournal.com/tag/the+body+holographic

make sure that you've got a towel to sob in, a box of tissues won't be enough.

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Thanks. This is a fic I've heard a lot about but never actually read. I suppose now is as good a time as any :)

[utterfrivolity.livejournal.com]

Two by Pru: Share (http://glitterati.talkoncorners.net/fiction/share.html) and Directional Theory (http://glitterati.talkoncorners.net/fiction/directionaltheory.html). The first isn't really a tear-jerker, but it quietly breaks my heart and leaves me unable to think about anything else for the rest of the night every single time I read it. The second's more straightforward pain.

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

I've read Directional Theory but not Share. Thank you :)

Re: so I cry over the strangest things...

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Strange is always good :) I'm looking forward to sitting down with these.

[debris_k.livejournal.com]

sardonicsmiley just posted an awesome, really f-up Rodney-centric (with McShep-ish tendencies) fic that will definitely take the sime off your face (in an excellent way): Not the Fine Man You Take Me For (http://sardonicsmiley.livejournal.com/54190.html).

Another fave is the McShep Close Enough (http://web.archive.org/web/20061214062401/http://fabularasa.arithmancy.net/CloseEnough.htm) by fabularasa; don't be fooled by it's angsty/smutty awesomeness, you *will* be needing that box of tissues.

[debris_k.livejournal.com]

take the *smile* off your face, even *facepalm*

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

OMG, I read Not the Fine Man You Take Me For earlier today and I have to agree with you: made of awesome.

Close Enough sounds familiar... I think it's another of those I've heard much of but never read. Thank you!

[allyndra.livejournal.com]

I agree with debris_k, sardonicsmiley likes to make us hurt. Dirge (http://sardonicsmiley.livejournal.com/53113.html) and Faith (http://sardonicsmiley.livejournal.com/39652.html) are both chock full of pain. Rodney pain.

dancinbutterfly's Invisble Prisoner (http://dancinbutterfly.livejournal.com/103384.html) is John-centric, and it killed me. It's the one where John's a prisoner and no one notices.

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

OMG Invisible Prisoner! I'd forgotten all about that! Thanks for the reminder :D

[gaffsie.livejournal.com]

You're probably familiar with most (if not all) of these, but it doesn't hurt to be reminded. ;) These are more gut-punches than tear-jerkers though. At least that's the way they made me feel. Oh, and they're all McKay/Sheppard unless stated otherwise.

What I Tell You Three Times (http://community.livejournal.com/mcshep_match/21690.html) by wickedwords. OUCH

Life (Sometimes It Washes Over Me) (http://community.livejournal.com/mcshep_match/14420.html) by kyuuketsukirui, and the sequel (which is even *more* depressing) Ring of Fire (Nails Driven Through Steel) (http://busaikko.livejournal.com/77042.html) by busaikko. (trans!Rodney)

Broaden Into Boundless Day (http://thingswithwings.livejournal.com/17065.html) by thingswithwings. (amnesiac!Rodney)

Golden Boy (http://community.livejournal.com/sga_flashfic/518954.html) by chopchica. I just have a thing for John getting his heart broken, I guess? *winces*

All These Places We Have Met (http://community.livejournal.com/sga_flashfic/565739.html) by toft_froggy. Who knew that dimension hopping could be so depressing?

Unidentified (http://fiercelydreamed.livejournal.com/8714.html) by fiercelydreamed. Earthside AU with Amnesiac!Rodney.

Through the Looking Glass (http://community.livejournal.com/mckay_sheppard/695456.html) by spacebabe. Futurefic.

Flinch (http://maisierita.livejournal.com/10900.html) by maiserita. Poor John. :(

Uncanny Valley (http://harriet-spy.livejournal.com/340998.html) by harriet_spy. Gen. Sheppard is a vessel.

Behold, Thy Time Was the Time of Love (http://riverlight.livejournal.com/37385.html) by riverlight. A look at the future.

I Got Soul But I'm Not a Soldier (http://minervacat.livejournal.com/951835.html) by minervacat. Futurefic.

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Life (Sometimes It Washes Over Me) and Ring Of Fire (Nails Driven Through Steel) *did* something to me. I mean, really; days and days later I would randomly think about it (especially the ending) and get all teary and sad. Amazing.

Thanks for all the other recs too; happy (or not so happy) reading lies ahead!

[le-mot-mo.livejournal.com]

Theory of Everything (http://rheanna27.livejournal.com/68371.html) by rheanna27 breaks my heart every time I reread it. It is just that good.

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Thank you, lovely.

Heartbreak

[less-star.livejournal.com]

"Dearest" by lavvyan. I'm useless with links, sorry, but you can find it on the author's LJ or the mckay_sheppard LJ comm.

Re: Heartbreak

[lunamazes.livejournal.com]

I think it's this: http://lavvyan.livejournal.com/211818.html

Re: Heartbreak

[less-star.livejournal.com]

No not that one (might be good though). Darn, I'm at work - I'll see if I can find it for you later.

Re: Heartbreak

[less-star.livejournal.com]

lunamazes got it right!

Re: Heartbreak

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[ccmom.livejournal.com]

Oddly, I only have one fic that's I've tagged with "sad." Although, I have 100's of fics tagged "angst." *shrugs* So I hope you enjoy it and that it makes you feel better.

Homunculus (http://fluffyllama.dreamhosters.com/mcshep_match/stories/Homunculus.htm)

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Not something I would have found on my own, which is great :)

[countess7.livejournal.com]

OMG! - saddest thing ever - Tofts's All These Places We Have Met (http://community.livejournal.com/sga_flashfic/565739.html) - made her betas cry! and I cry every time I re-read. ALSO: (totally FTW) thingswithwings did podfic (http://community.livejournal.com/sgapodfic/56026.html) of it, which is just OMG! the john-angst is insane - you can hear his panic in her voice - and Rodney's desperation. sad liek whoa.

[jolielaide.livejournal.com]

I totally concur. I just listened to thingswithwings' podfic of this, and-- WOW. And-- OUCH. I was just sobbing at the end. SO GOOD.

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

And podfic too! Thank you!

[char-char-05.livejournal.com]

The Lament of Consequence (http://neevebrody.livejournal.com/30256.html) by neevebrody. Hardcore NC-17 with dubious consent and AMTDI. The end is just GAH! Hurts every single time.

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Oh my... yes, that ending does gte you, doesn't it *sniffles*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

The awesome 'Back from the Well' (http://xanthestories.livejournal.com/2188.html) by xanthelj (McKay/Sheppard/Beckett)

Author's summary: Atlantis has been invaded and her people sold to work as slaves.

Extract: "I just want it back to how it was before. You, me, John... nothing good like that ever happened to me before and it's all falling apart. I can't look at Radek without remembering the plantation and being thrown down against that bloody well and, and.. and you're walking around with the weight of the entire galaxy on your shoulders and John... John isn't John at all! There are some things you can't just tidy up, Carson."

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Not what I usually go for, but it sounds interesting, so I'm going to give it a go. Thank you :)

[liamar13.livejournal.com]

Dirge (http://sardonicsmiley.livejournal.com/53113.html?style=mine) by sardonicsmiley made me weep, big endless tears, running down my face kind of weep. its such a good story but oh my god.

oh and i second the rec for the body holographic. it gets you unawares, that story does.

anyways hope you enjoy these.

Eta- Had a look around and found these

1)The Entire Truth (http://community.livejournal.com/sga_flashfic/325957.html) by corinna_5

2)[shift]Reality (http://community.livejournal.com/mcshep_match/18880.html?view=956352) by gblvr

3)Sandstorms (http://www.wraithbait.com/viewstory.php?sid=11931&textsize=0&chapter=1) by Mithreon

4)Rosebud (http://www.eternalvox.net/%7Eauburn/rosebud.html) and Up Into The Silence (http://www.eternalvox.net/%7Eauburn/upintothesilence.html). these are mirror stories, both by Auburn

5)Three Fates (http://www.eternalvox.net/~auburn/threefates.html) by Auburn and Eretria

6)An Exercise in Pointlessness (http://lavvyan.livejournal.com/23637.html) by lavvyan

7)Stockholm Syndrome (http://community.livejournal.com/sga_flashfic/309092.html) by mousewitchy

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

There are a few here I've not seen before... thank you :)

[gaffsie.livejournal.com]

This one was posted today: Building Bombs (http://community.livejournal.com/atlantis_9to5/3750.html). It's by busaikko, is an earthside AU, and managed to break my heart competently.

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

I was going to rec this myself; I read it when it came out and was all weepy and sad for the rest of the day. Brilliant.

[trish51.livejournal.com]

I don't think anybody has mentioned it but Dial Tone by Cassie Jamie always makes me sad. It's here http://wraithbait.com/viewstory.php?sid=2542

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[sagejackson.livejournal.com]

I like Sistinas (http://surreallis.livejournal.com/149412.html) by Jennghis Khan.

It's gen and horror. It's a creepy, melancholic sort of sad.
Hope you enjoy!

Sage Jackson

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Ouch, man. Perfect - thank you!

Re: I've found my ff.net account!

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

And even more! Yey! I love this comm.

Again

[less-star.livejournal.com]

Two more (if you can take it?):

"Hands away" by Mandy's bitch. I warn you, I had to promise myself never to re-read it, and I normally love heartbreaking stories.

http://mandysbitch.livejournal.com/214061.html

"Like no other child" by Cottontail. http://cottontail.livejournal.com/85046.html

I tried to do pretty links, but I'm old and internet hates me. Sorry!

Re: Again

[hestia-lacey.livejournal.com]

Keep them coming :D Thank you, lovely!

[linziday.livejournal.com]

These aren't McShep, but they totally rock. If you're looking for heart-shattering fics, these always do it for me:

Stuck! by Kolyaaa (Rodney is turned into a child. Teyla is turned elderly. Much angst mixed with bits of humor... which makes the angst all that more angsty. There's a part where Rodney goes missing and Sheppard and Carson find him.... and then... well, I won't spoil it for you. Suffice it to say "Gah!") http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2652996/1/

Little Man Sheppard by Stealth Dragon (Sheppard is turned into a child. Five years old but with emerging memories of a soldier... a soldier who's killed and who's watched friends die. Parts bring me to tears *every single time*.) http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2652996/1/

And if the whole Sunday thing makes you sob, there's Home by... well, er, me. :0) http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3880861/1/Home