Angst-fics centred in Rodney

[monch-10.livejournal.com]

Hi!! I am absurdly happy, so I was wondering if anyone knew of any fic focused on Rodney, a super depressing fic no matter the genre or partner.

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[sp23.livejournal.com]

I always have to rec Sandstorms by Mithreon (http://www.wraithbait.com/viewstory.php?sid=11931&warning=12) for a top-of-the-angst-meter story. Some McKay/OFC ending up McShep.

[velocitygrass.livejournal.com]

My angst usually ends happily, but Operant Conditioning (http://mcsheplets.livejournal.com/75233.html) doesn't. Rodney with various OMCs, unrequitted McShep.

[monch-10.livejournal.com]

Thank you ^^

[monch-10.livejournal.com]

I Love this, Thanks

[ultimatemarysue.livejournal.com]

I think another of velocitygrass's fics fits the bill: Click (http://mcsheplets.livejournal.com/145569.html).

Also, Sardonicsmiley's Faith (http://smiley.zonezine.net/html/39652.html).

Zinnith's The Opposite of Fine (http://zinnith.dreamwidth.org/17494.html). Though John's the messed up one.

Toft's All These Places We Have Met (http://sga-flashfic.livejournal.com/565739.html).

And, of course, Synecdochic's Freedom's Just Another Word for Nothing Left to Lose (http://www.kekkai.org/synecdochic/sga/freedoms_just_another_word.html). Even just thinking about this story gets me choked up. Jesus.

[csad21.livejournal.com]

If you want really depressing stories (as in, tears), you might want to look up some of auburn's SGA fanfic (http://www.eternalvox.net/auburn/fiction.html#atlantis-fic). Her stories are impressive. Granted, some of them are humor and fluff, but the epic fics really are heavy on the emotion without being emo or melodramatic in the least. (The fact that they're so well-written makes the impact of the angst even better/worse, depending on your mood.) Some are John-centric, others not. You'll figure it out from the summaries. I'd start with "The Water Grinds the Stone".

Pilgrim's Progress (http://smiley.zonezine.net/html/44403.html) and Permutationality (http://smiley.zonezine.net/html/62850.html) by sardonicsmiley fit as well. (The first is about Rodney and Teyla against creepy religious nuts maybe even worse than the Ori, the second is a somewhat creepy Rodney-kidnapped-by-Todd's-hive sort of story with on-setting Stockholm syndrome.)

Also second the above-linked "Faith" and "Freedom's..." (There aren't many in the fandom who can withstand "Freedom" without at the very least getting misty-eyed.)

Then there's another fandom classic, DADT, Damyata, Dayadhvam by trinityofone (http://trinityofone.livejournal.com/62721.html#cutid1) [ Alternate link: http://trinityofone.unrealwords.com/dadt.html ] //
A world where DADT is enforced by an implant, where even the wrong thought can cause pain, and how the Atlantis contingent, how *Rodney*, deals with it. Warning: The implications in this story are creepy and terrifying as hell. Not for the faint of heart.

No More Dreadful Punishment by laceymcbain (http://archiveofourown.org/works/176453)
Rodney feels like Sisyphus. And now... Warning: unhappy ending. [ Alternate link: http://www.stickymanpress.mediawood.net/nomoredreadful.html ] //
And another. Every day the same thing in a different disguise, but it’s been two years and Rodney knows it’s the same rock he’s rolling up the same damn hill, Atlantis’s ocean breeze blowing through his hair, the scent of salt and sweat chasing him up the summit until he’s within sight of it, so close he can reach out and touch it, and then it all starts over again like a bad dream, an eternal punishment, but he’s accepted that’s the way it has to be. He’s managed to do it without them finding out.
“I found a way to keep going,” he murmurs, and John’s voice sounds unbearably sad when he whispers,
“I know.”


Salt by Mrs Hamill (http://hawksong.com/~momskitchen/SGA_Fic/salt.htm)
Summary: What constitutes 'quality of life' and who decides? /// Warning: Heartbreaking.

As Good As It Gets by rogue_planet (http://sga-santa.livejournal.com/76949.html?format=light)
Summary: "Would you believe me if I told you this was the best of all possible worlds?" // Very intense, and quite a bit dark story. After a run-in with an Ancient device--that had Rodney disappear for three weeks--Rodney comes back broken. The reason? Rodney found out first-hand that their reality is the best possible outcome, has seen all the ways how things could have been much, much worse. He will not recover from this, because: "How am I supposed to live with knowing this is as good as it gets?"

Foolproof and Incapable of Error by Neery (http://neery.killerstar.net/stories/foolproof.html)
"I am, by any practical definition of the word, foolproof and incapable of error. I am merely helping you put yourself to the fullest possible use." Psychotic AI threatens Rodney to do John's bidding.

Look Back in Anger By Leesa Perrie (http://leesaperrie.tripod.com/AtlantisStoryPages/Atl_LookBackInAnger.html)
Summary: Set after The Return Pt 2, Season 3. Rodney takes a trip down memory lane. It's not fun, and he's not alone. Rodney angst galore! ||
The team plus Carter is off-world when they find a strange building with a room that houses technology of neither Wraith nor Ancient origin. But before they know it, the tech locks them in, and forces Carter and Sheppard to be watchers while Rodney relives some of his worst memories, which gives them a better understanding as to how Rodney became the person he is. Rodney-centric angst and friendship story.

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All the Things Rodney Never Was by sardonicsmiley (http://smiley.zonezine.net/html/36940.html)
Summary: Rodney wasn’t trained for this. // New enemy, dead people, Rodney involuntarily in charge.

Logical Solutions to Illogical Situations by sardonicsmiley (http://smiley.zonezine.net/html/42478.html)
Summary: Atlantis is playing favorites. And then matchmaker. Because John and Atlantis are like an arranged marriage whereas Atlantis and Rodney are like true love.

Not A Threat (but not exactly human, either) by neery (http://neery.killerstar.net/stories/notathreat.html)

Oasis by blueraccoon (http://blueraccoon.livejournal.com/559265.html)
"The job comes first," Rodney said softly. He'd been the one to say that, back in the beginning, back when they'd thought this was just sex. The job came first. It had to. There was no room for error, no room to screw up because they were distracted. The job, and the appearance, came before everything else.

Not sure if this one is Rodney-centric, but it's told from his POV, and I've bookmarked it with "Warning: This story hurts.", so...
In This Era of Liberty by Chandri MacLeod (http://www.wraithbait.com/viewstory.php?action=printable&sid=13942&textsize=0&chapter=1)
Summary: They lose the Daedelus at the beginning of the fifth year. That's the first night John crawls into bed with him.

Only Someone Running by busaikko (http://archiveofourown.org/works/76804)
Summary: Love, the human soul, and Occam's Razor — entia non sunt multiplicanda praeter necessitatem (entities should not be multiplied beyond necessity). Eptag for SGA 'This Mortal Coil'. Spoilers for the film Thoughtcrimes. Despite the dire warnings, no canon SGA personnel are harmed in the story. // Actually a rather dark and bittersweet worst-case scenario. [ Alternate links: http://www.wraithbait.com/viewstory.php?sid=13197&index=1 or: http://busaikko.slashcity.org/?p=63 ]

There are probably a lot more, but these are the ones to first come to mind right now, so that's all from me. If you're so inclined, just look through here (https://pinboard.in/u:csad/t:sga/t:angst/t:drama/) later. The summaries and tags should help find the Rodney-centric ones.

[monch-10.livejournal.com]

You are a genius!!