Looking for Long Angst!

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Hi, I'm looking for your favorite long angsty fics. I'm going away and will need the distraction so the longer, the better. Sheppard-centric is good, slash or gen is fine, but I really want the angstiest things you've ever read. I hope this isn't too vague a request. Again - emphasis on the long, please.

(eta deathfics tag, as that's what most of the replies are)

Thanks!