John crying

[ultimatemarysue.livejournal.com]

Ok, I've looked through the bottom!John and mcshep tags but didn't find what I'm looking for. I'm looking for fics where John (in character) breaks down and cries. I don't want frou frou, touchy feely John. I want emotionally retarded, it takes a metric ton of shit to make this boy cry John. So, I'm ok with death!fics. Esp if Rodney's death is what makes John cry.

Hit me with your best shot, y'all. I've currently got two fics that fit this bill and I wrote one so it doesn't count. (The other is one I can't remember exactly right now, but people decide to leave Atlantis through faking their deaths and when Rodney fakes his death it's all too much for John and he cries.) Note -- that parenthetical is NOT a fic which I'm currently seeking. I've got it bookmarked and it's well loves.

Otherwise, give me your weepy John Sheppards...

Thanks!