post-Trinity Rodney doubting himself

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I have a sudden craving for post-Trinity fic (McShep if possible, but I won't be picky) where Rodney reacts to what happened on Duranda and after by starting to second-guess himself and his decisions in scientific and personal matters. You know, stopping to believe in himself and in being right. I've been going through post-Trinity fics for a while, but haven't found one with these characteristics.

I don't even know if stories like this exist, but I really, really hope so. I so don't want to have to write a fic like that, just so I can read it. ;)

Help is very appreciated.